I have been feeling depressed the last week. I have had so much on my mind. I feel like my faith is doing the ebb/flow thing. I don't know where I belong in the Jewish community. Infertility. Holidays. Reflecting. Cooking. Cleaning.
The best way to describe the feeling has been a burnt out exhaustion. It started around Rosh Hashanah. After I finished that 30 day writing challenge, I didn't really feel spiritually ready for the Jewish New Year. I felt. Empty. Like a "so what?" kind of feeling.
Those feelings have been staying right through Sukkot, a time that is supposed to be filled with joy. I put my son in extra day care hours this week to give myself some mommy alone time. It has helped a bit. One more set of three day Yom Tov this weekend. I admit I'm not feeling spiritually or emotionally ready to do it again, but, like all my hard races, I will do one more push to the finish line.
Do you feel holiday burn out?
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